I think my sister will appreciate this post the most!
"Leave it at the pulpit" is a saying my sister and I have come up with over the years when we give a talk or a lesson that we think didnt go so well. We cant help but think about all the things that went wrong and how stupid we must have looked. It gets so deep into our brain that nothing else can seem to sneek its way in. This can last for days. So we tell each other to "leave it at the pulpit. You cant change it, you cant do anything about it. It is what it is and people most likely forgot about it 2 seconds after you sat down while you are beating yourself into the ground about it."
Well I am writing this post because I am having a hard time leaving it at the pulpit! Here is my story...
Tonight for our Young Womens activity we had a camera crew from Salt Lake for vineyard.lds.org come and film us for a "Mormom Message". We had fun at first touring their site and sharing service experiences. But then it got serious and here's why. The other reason they came was because they wanted to get a story of our Leaders who has gone through breastcancer/chemo 2 times and in between had a baby when she was told there was no way she would have any more children. So 3 AMAZING miracles in her life. Well they asked if anyone would like to share how we feel about this great Leader of ours. No one raised their hand at first so I thought this was an opportunity for me to let her know how much I appreciate her. Well Im not sure if she or anyone else including the camera crew could even understand what I was saying through my bauling. I didnt feel emotional in anyways until the time came for me to say how I felt. I'm pretty sure I snorted a couple time, I'm pretty sure I stared off into space the whole time, and I'm pretty sure I will not be included in the video. It was bad. Im really hoping Im making a bigger deal out of it then it was....but Im pretty sure Im not!! I'm having a really hard time leaving this one at the pulpit.
But what I was TRYING to say was how great of an example she is to me and to everyone else around her. Sometimes I may feel tired from Tyson waking up once in the middle of the night and feel like staying home from Young Womens but she comes every single Tuesday no matter how she is feeling, no matter what she has gone through. I dont think there is a time I havent seen her doing something for someone else. She is simply amazing.
that is soooooooooo cool! I won't tell you that I am sure all was fine because I know it is probably annoying. You should focus on the fact that you have been part of her amazing life and you had the open invitation to share your feelings when sometimes it is easier to think them and not express them-tears and all. Now, did you watch the video after conference on sunday? The one about the two brothers. If you didn't then you need to. The oldest brother shares some things about feelings and loving others. You are sensitive and that is what the Lord would have us all be, I think. Who cares if you aren't in the video sharing that particular statement but she now knows it and your girls know it. President Eyring cries all the time when speaking and it gives it power, not less. SO LEAVE IT AT THE PULPIT. (oh but lets laugh together about the snorting part...hahahahahaha....and now we move on)
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ReplyDeleteI love what Liana said. It is so true. I just wanted to add that each of us have emotions close to the surface. We sometimes don't know how close until we have to share things with others. You had the courage to share your feelings and thoughts about this great leader. Others are not going to remember that you bawled, blubbered or snorted. They are going to remember how you had the courage to say feelings that all of you felt. You have a way with words that is hard for others to express. They are thankful you shared what they felt out loud.
ReplyDeleteI love you. You are a very caring, loving and kind person. Thanks for sharing your embarrassing moment because we all have had them and can laugh at ourselves when we remember back at those times.
When Kurt was getting his Eagle, I was asked to talk. I was emotional but said something that silly and was crying and laughing at the same time and snorted. Everyone looked surprised and embarrassed for me then I saw Keri and MaryAnne and they were laughing so hard. I felt better because all you can do is smile and laugh at yourself. Marita
This account won't let me use my google either and I had to post anonymous. mom Marita Jensen
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